I think my excruciating self analysis has gone too far, I have a drafted blog post that upon re-reading even makes me think I’m completely abnormal. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to be normal but I don’t want to be that abnormal either.
There is so much going on right now that I feel I could and should blog about but I can’t.
I saw a blogging break coming, I thought it was indicative of a new chapter in my life opening but I think today I’ve made the choice to close a chapter instead.
I’ve said too much.
I swing between thinking I am perfectly ok and thinking I am actually quite unwell. I had a good day yesterday by normal standards and my end of the day summing up was “that was a good day Zoë, today would be a good day to kill yourself”. Obviously I didn’t and now, in the moment I have no plans to do so but I take this as an indication of just how unstable things are for me at the moment.
So being the mentally healthy and in-tune kind of woman that I am my solution to the current state of affairs is just to stop, take a break, stop thinking, stop talking and hope that I can go back to being whatever I am in private.
In my experience few things inspire rampant blogging as much as a declaration of a blogging break so the chances are I’ll be back before the end of the weekend………..
I’ll be around in the usual places, hope to see you there.
In the meantime, a brief musical interlude………enjoy Xxx